I have been holding on to the fear of being in a gym for a while now. I started associating feelings of insecurity, embarrassment, and the fear of disappointment with just being in the gym. So I did what I knew best and avoided any situation which made me feel like that and used food to comfort any anxiety I felt. Double whammy!! I assume it had to do with the fact that i use to be much smaller and could do a lot more when I worked out. So some how I had to get over thinking everyone was watching me, judging me, and laughing at me. They say the best way to conquer a fear is to face it. And I think I did it in a big way today, with the help of my roomie. He's an awesome spinning instructor and I took my first class yesterday. I couldn't believe I said I was going. I mean of all the things to do in the gym, to me a spinning class was the worst and hardest thing to do. But today a did it and SURVIVED!! :) My butt cheeks still hurt from the seat but I lived and actually may go back again. I feel quite proud of myself today and hope I can keep up this great start of the year.
So don't let past experiences keep you from doing what you know is best for you. Be self aware and don't be scared to make improvements. We are all a work in progress.